Suck it up son o’ mine
Thunder blowin’ up your horizon

Changes come
Keep your dignity
Take the high road
Take it like a man
(Puscifer - Momma Sed)

Without giving anything away for fear the winds will change and blow it all away, I think I’ve found what to do with myself. I will give it a little time and a little effort, see if this thing takes root, and if it’s worth it to go chase the tornado. If there’s one thing I’ve learnt about myself, it’s not to make rash decisions. Suffice to say, I haven’t felt this good about anything in years. I think the last time was when I was accepted to study at the university, and this path I’m looking at now would be if not entirely a logical, at least an emotional continuance to that one important turn in my life.

All my life I’ve struggled with the idealistic notion of incorporating passion into what would become my life’s work. I’ve wanted to love what I do, not just earn money and live my life when not at work. I’ve wanted to care about whatever it is I end up doing, but I’ve never managed to come up with something I’m that passionate about, and what still might earn me a living. Well, it may be there is little or no money to be had if I take this path I’m contemplating, but there is passion and love. Now it comes down to courage, determination, and luck.

And I’ve always considered myself lucky.