So quiet. I’m at the computer every day, sometimes I even consider writing a little bit of this or that in SW, but never get around to it. Currently I’m working on a translation, which has proven to be a bit more difficult than I originally thought, but which will have to get done regardless. It’s not a real job thingy, more like a favour, but at least it’s an exercise of the skills I sometimes think I’ve lost already. I haven’t, not really, but I still need to be reminded that they’re there. And sometimes I still don’t believe it.
Apparently this is what unemployment does to me. Gives me doubts upon doubts about myself. About how the world works and how I don’t in it.
There is more negative space in my head lately. I wouldn’t go so far as to call it depression, but it’s something.
I wish I had more courage.
Sweetie, I know how you feel.
Happily, I can also tell you that it will pass. Just hold onto that ‘pääoma’ you already have, and do all the possible and impossible odd jobs that might bounce your way. Sooner or later something will come up.
Don’t lose heart now.
Comment by Eve — March 12, 2009 @ 7:01 pm